I keep this secret of a sacred road,
whittle words into bright things with sharp points.
I give free advice to those who listen
I give the invoices to those who don’t.
I was sent godfree from the holy hills
to trap souls and save them in a black box.
Sometimes I mess with paint and people’s heads.
Comedy seeds I plant in the world’s hard ground,
small round jokes about the hydra’s back teeth.
I have a man who loves me as I am
I carry solar systems in my head,
make love like the guilt of a forgotten crime
I stalk the streets in search of mystery
but there’s a monkey on my back, driving.
when the clouds evaporate to death
like a pencil
under the sun’s circling blade
a dangerous focus
swivels to scalpel a clarity
what clouds survive have crisp edges
shadows paint their boundaries
without masking tape
you are in relief
at these HDR moments
one side of you so keen
it slits my sight
plunges the other into darkness
as if sunlight splites you through
to keep your extremes at bay
till the clouds return
sew you together
with soft needles
my focus on the
squares is lost. the sun. in my
my view distracted,
fractured by a clink of glass
as they kiss gently,
for the most part. this random
is not so random.
jostling for position
is a social skill;
for the most part. the sun had
blinded me to all this.
now in reflection
I catch swiftly concealed chinks
glint an opening
the glass pieces
form relationships on the board;
knight, rook, bishop, queen.
we went to costa.
to have that conversation;
bones creaked like roast beans.
smalltalk, as dark drank
the day perched clench hungry in
a high calendar,
milk foam clouds lightly
dusted with chocolate soured
grim across the sky
and the words scummed thick
like a greasy bath tideline.
then we reached the dregs.
I like sunflowers. They are not what one
imagines them to be. We live in dreams.
They are scruffy-haired punk muscle-blooms
greened with a collar of untidy spikes.
When I brought them home I hoped to catch what
van Gogh caught but black and white, dramatic
hairy stems like dutchmen’s legs, supporting
scimitars of bristles, taloning up
to cast shadows of a nest of fresh claws
across the wall to the clock; time as trap.
In art they stand to represent the dead
just a temporary glory, gleaming
like these two here today, their faces set.
Petals sharpened. Clock in waiting, bides its time.
I can see sleep
watching from the shadows
at the river’s edge
licking his lips
last night he did not want me
I lay staring
at my dreams of dreams
like landed fish
he’s lapping dancing up the banks now
teasing with his snail’s advance
I fall for him again
There are no angels here
that will own up, come clean
and show their wings.
I’d thought them in hiding;
a kind of godless protection programme.
New names, a house. Jobs.
Maybe they have forgotten
who they are
and how to fly,
have grounded themselves
in houses drenched
with christmas lights
or else keep racing pigeons
lovingly housed in kits
on precarious ledges.
They will have blistered feet
no belly buttons
facial hair or nipples
I’ve tried to seek them out.
I’ve searched and searched.
But nothing… Nothing.